Here is my reply.
I don't recall your mentioning this prior relationship. If you did, you certainly left out the part about you still being in love with her. This was critical information, for I was making decisions about how much of myself to reveal to and share with you during the weeks we were together. I held nothing back, and was encouraged by comments like "I think you might be really good for me." You even planned our next date; you were going to take me to Dante's, remember? I looked forward to it for two weeks.
This does explain, though, some of the "weirdness" surrounding our getting acquainted - why so much time went by between dates, why you texted sporadically and called rarely. Silly me: I thought you were just shy. Encouraged by our third date, during which you truly seemed to open up and after which we really stayed connected for a while, I thought the weirdness was past and we were on our way to something potentially great. (Note to self: in the future, flee at the first sign of weirdness.)
I don't know the circumstances surrounding your breakup, but based on what little you shared in your note, it doesn't sound hopeful for the two of you, especially considering the fact that a year has already gone by and you "rarely speak to her and doubt that you can ever have a future together." Only time will tell. In the meantime, you could have had ME. Now you have doubled your losses.
And you chose to share this with me in an E-MAIL? I *KNOW* I deserved better than that. Tacky, tacky.
I understand heartbreak all too well. I want you to know you have added to mine.
Someday, when you read my best seller, you will recognize yourself in one of its characters. And cringe.