Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Here, There and Everywhere

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I have been getting about five hours of sleep, on average, for the past ten nights or so. This is beginning to catch up with me; everything seems worse than it is, and I am having a hard time finding perspective. I am missing lost loved ones, struggling financially, wishing I could make life easier for my children, questioning my ability as a writer, wondering if I will ever meet Mr. Right. (Actually, I think I HAVE met Mr. Right, but he is too stupid to realize it. Sigh.) Suddenly, the weather has turned cool and dreary, down about 30 degrees since the weekend; today I shivered in jeans and a sweater, and I wonder how I will be able to survive the winter ahead..

Since I apparently have nothing nice to say here tonight, I am going to direct you elsewhere. 

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A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book.
~ Irish proverb


Anonymous said...

Hang in there, Pam! A friend of mine from our time in Alaska, who is amazing and inspirational, is always posting wonderful things to think about on her FB page. I looked at her page really quickly and here are two things that caught my eye:

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin-real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me.... these obstacles were my life."
~Alfred D’Souza~

And, "Ignoring your passion is like dying a slow death…Passion whispers to you through your feelings, beckoning you toward your highest good. Pay attention to what makes you feel energized, connected, stimulated- what gives you your juice. Do what you love, give it back in the form of service, and you will do more than succeed. You will triumph."
~Oprah Winfrey~

I am glad you feel comfortable sharing your feelings in this forum, and I suspect a little sleep will do wonders for you! I know you have the support of lots of people.

Leslie from Mt. Carmel

Pam Asberry said...

Thank you, Leslie. :-)

Anonymous said...

You're AMAZING. We love you. Which one is Mr Right, and has Eric ran a background check yet?? ;) ;) ;)


Pam Asberry said...

LOL, Donna. I'll get back to you with the details later!

S.M. Carrière said...

There must be something in the air. I've been averaging four hours of sleep a night, though I'm sure that will improve when I recommence training and drop almost-dead of sheer exhaustion.

I suggest finding a spare half hour, running a hot bubble bath with some candles, red wine and soft music.

And then a nice cuppa tea and a good book.

Take the time you need to recharge. Perhaps the universe is telling you something. Stop and listen a while.

Anonymous said...

Pam, A little sleep would go a long long way for you and your mood. Yes it will catch up with you and apparently has. Drugs do work, not long term but short term. I like the blend of or alternating each nightly that is aspirin, melatonin, benadryl, and wine. More wine than anything. You aren't getting any rewards and you certainly deserve them.

And he isn't stupid just slow. Take two aspirin and a glass of wine and call me in the morning.

Buffy said...

I'm thinking of you right now, Pam. I've been having a hard couple of days, too. This re-configuring your whole life thing can be joyful, but it can sure also be sad and disorienting.

Anonymous said...

Pam, I hope your "Mr.Right" knows he's your "Mr Right". I hope you aren't assuming he knows, maybe you need to remind him and let him know how you feel, that is if you haven't already. Sometimes you have to knock a man upside the head for him to realize things....hehe

Pam Asberry said...

Sounds like good advice, S.M. Here's hoping we both get our sleep schedules back on track soon!

Pam Asberry said...

Hey Anonymous, you know wine isn't a good remedy for sleep, especially when mixed with other drugs. It's very hard on the liver. Be careful.

Pam Asberry said...

Well-said, Buffy. I'll be thinking about you, too.

Pam Asberry said...

Oh, he knows, Anonymous. That's part of my problem, I think; I am too forthcoming with my feelings, and in the early stages of romance men are all too willing to respond in kind, but then for whatever reason they pull back and my heart is hanging out there on my sleeve, dripping for the world to see. I think it's time to let go of Mr. Right - because apparently he isn't - and get on with my life. Maybe someday I will meet someone who is willing to give 100% of himself, as I am willing to give of myself.

Leanne109 said...

I know exactly how you feel. I'd say we're in the same boat. 1 day at a time, it's my mantra and it's the only thing besides family that gets me through each day. Smile at people as they walk by and I promise it will lift you up a bit each time :D Take care hun!


Pam Asberry said...

"One Day At A Time" - that's my mantra too, Leanne; I even have a sterling silver charm stamped with that slogan that I wear around my neck. I think I should dig it up and wear it today. And I like your idea about smiling at strangers, except I work from home. Maybe I'll try that the next time I go to the grocery store. Thanks for your encouragement!