Life is not lost by dying; life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all the thousand small uncaring ways.
~ Stephen Vincent Benet
Here we are, just a little more than two weeks into the New Year. How are you doing with those resolutions?
Don't ask me about mine, since I DIDN'T MAKE ANY. Instead, I have been working on developing better habits and routines for the sake of my health and my sanity. I have gone to the gym or worked out to an exercise video every day; I have cooked dinner for my family at least three or four times a week.
|Tuscan Bean Soup with Shrimp, inspired by The Pioneer Woman.|
Click HERE for the recipe.
With the encouragement of the FlyLady, I shine my kitchen sink every night; ; I swish and swipe the bathrooms every morning; I spend at least fifteen minutes de-cluttering every day. Now my piano studio looks like this:
|The room feels a lot bigger now.|
And my beading area (back in my bedroom) looks like this:
|All my beads and supplies are sorted and the drawers and bins are labeled. It's great being able to actually find things when I need them!|
I am working on a new line of jewelry to add to my Etsy store, revising The Wishing Box for submission to a writing contest with a February 1st deadline, and plotting my next work of fiction. I am taking Bob Mayer's Write-It-Forward online workshop and gaining a much better understanding of my goals and motivations as a writer. I am practicing the first movement of Mozart's Piano Concerto in D minor on the piano, the first movement of Saint-Saens' Clarinet Sonata in F Major on the clarinet, and looking forward to a lesson with a bonafide mandolin teacher on Saturday. And I am helping my piano students get ready for a piano festival on February 11th. It is thrilling to hear their progress from week to week and to help them find solutions to the problems they are having with their pieces.
It's what I do. But it's not who I am.
I am mother and daughter, sister and friend, artist and musician. There are a few pieces missing in this puzzle that is my life, but for the moment I am quite content living with the empty spaces. As a matter of fact, I have too much gratitude to complain about much of anything right now, thanks to a scare I had a couple of weeks ago.
It was every woman's nightmare. My Pap smear came back "abnormal," necessitating a follow-up procedure and a biopsy. Thankfully, those results were negative, but during the long days of waiting there was plenty of time to mull over past decisions, time wasted, and all there was to lose.
A couple of days ago, I read a blog post in which the author shared the sweet experience of making the final payment on a large debt incurred as the result of a previous terrible relationship. I am in a similar situation, owing several thousand dollars in credit card debt accumulated on behalf of my ex-fiance and his children, and wonder if I will ever get to the point of being debt-free. Her now-happily-married conclusion? "You get what you settle for. So why settle for anything less than amazing?" Which is exactly what a follower said in response to this blog post of mine: "Never settle for less than what you know you deserve....You deserve the love you are looking for."
So now that I have a (relatively) clean bill of health, I am more than ready to accept this sage advice. Until Mr. Right comes along, I am doing just fine, thank you very much, with my boyfriend TiVo managing the remotes and my dog Karma sharing my bed with me.
How are you feeling two weeks into 2012? Are you pleased with your progress so far? Wishing you could start over? You can, you know. Every sunrise offers an opportunity for reinvention. I look forward to hearing about your journey!