Monday, April 16, 2012

Back in the saddle


I made the mistake of going out with an old boyfriend Friday night. I won't go into the details; it is enough to say that agreeing to see him was a tremendous error in judgment. Because while I still have deep feelings for him, he looks to me for nothing more than a good time. And I deserve better than that.

The good news is it didn't take long for me to realize it. I came home early, angry and dejected, and made a few promises to myself before I went to bed. Einstein said the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.  So it's time for a different approach.

I think what I really need right now is to take some time out to heal my broken heart and do the things I love: read, make things, work on my music, tend my home, hang out with my children.

And FINISH MY BOOK.

I have two partial requests and a full request outstanding; I need to complete my revision ASAP and submit it to these agents who expressed interest in my story and have the power to help me achieve my dreams. And I'm starting TODAY, with 1000 words.

Everything, absolutely everything else, is taking a back seat to my writing. It's a minimum of 1000 words a day.

Or bust.

If you want to keep track of my progress, scroll down the right side bar and look for the progress meter for The Wishing Box. It's the story of my heart.

Wish me luck.

10 comments:

Knitting with a Purpose said...

You do, you do deserve better. Not to be presumptuous, but mainly, you deserve better from yourself, right? It's so hard to give up those fantasies that other people will change and be who we want them to be. So, we have to change what we can, which is ourselves.

S.M. Carrière said...

You can totally do this! Good luck!

Pam Asberry said...

Yes, Knitting, I deserve better from myself. It has been SO hard to let go of this fantasy. But it is do or die. So I am going to work on myself. Thank you so much for stopping by and commenting.

Pam Asberry said...

Thank you, S.M. I KNOW I can! :-)

Patricia said...

You don't have to wish for it and you don't need luck.
You'll JUST DO IT. That's who you are.

AND to rephrase somebody's quote: Life keeps giving us the same test until we come up with a different answer. You'll figure that one out too.

Pam Asberry said...

It's true, Pat; I have many faults, but I am NOT a quitter. I love the quote. I need to think about that for a while. Thank you for all your support!

Julee J. Adams said...

You are absolutely right! I've been writing a few scenes here and there, but I really need to get going myself. Chalk you experience with your loser ex-boyfriend up to "it sounded like a good idea at the time" and move on to do what you need to do.

Pam Asberry said...

Perfect, Julee. Yes, let's BOTH get back to our writing!

Denise said...

Still looking forward to the tour.

Pam Asberry said...

I won't let you down, Denise...